stuff I can't talk about

So - there's something happening in my life and I really don't feel like I want to talk about it here but its what I'm thinking about lately. Hopefully, in about a week or so, I'll be able to mention it whether it ends positively or negatively. Enough said? Just think of me Wednesday around 10am and 1pm.

Nonetheless - this stuff I can't talk about will probably at some point require me to anwer a question such as: Describe yourself.

And sometimes, when I think about that, I laugh.

I know what I'm not like.

I'm not like my good friend, T who is ever the little ray of sunshine, reminding me (kicking me) to remain a little positive and not so pessimistic (read: realistic) all the time. She is all about love and sentiment and joy and I love that about her. I admire it in her. But that's not me.

I know I'm not like my good friend H who considers her entire neighbourhood her family. Her home is intertwined with her neighbours and most of her evenings are spent by a pool with a beer (or seven) and endless conversation. She walks around with her Bluenose cell phone attached to her ear. Me? I'm not a big phone person and my friends regularly have to beg me to join them for a drink and conversation. Don't get me wrong - I can talk (and she knows this by experience) but sometimes, it takes some coercing. I love that she needs none. But that's not me.

I know I'm probably a lot more like Atypical than I care to admit. But there's differences too. She is quite happy to remain with the status quo and coast a little. Me? Constantly doing, changing, itchy to try something new. I could learn from her I think. But that's not me.

I'm not as faithful as the other H, not as intelligent as E, not as easily satisfied as S.

What I am is a mixture of strong creative energy grounded in the concrete world of science. I am a lover of the process more than the end result. And I am *perfect* for this new job...uh, I mean that stuff I can't talk about.

Here's hoping they agree.